Soft and sourceless light: Lyrics of my first song

You were with me at pink dawn on the cliff overlooking oceans
 The sun smashed up through sea and with a quiet yawn we watched
 The illumination of a cold and dewy tree
 You were with me at pink dawn
 
 I had known you in the soft and sourceless light as
 Our threshing trembling limbs
 Choreographed desire hymns
 I had known you in the soft and sourceless light  
 Like two sticks rubbed together
 We made a fire in the cold,  
 We were dumb but far from silent
 In the soft and sourceless light
 
 I loved the idea of you
 Clothed in omens, clothed bright
 Slave of the one lord of light
 You were like a major arcana that walked right off the card
 Perhaps you were the star  
 Or perhaps in retrospect o’ omen you were the fool
 Standing against the tower
 Thing of Jung, made alive to suck and fuck
 I loved the idea of you
 
 Now it could be that your lord will fix everything and everything
 Reach out and turn to diamond
 Each crystal tear and broken fear
 I do not think your lord would listen to me
 Yet
 It could be that your lord will fix everything and everything
 
 And if you ever find out
 This song is about you, I apologise in advance  
 A thousand times, I apologise in advance 

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